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  Contents

  Title Page

  BOOK ONE

  A Trap to Catch a Gazelle

  BOOK TWO

  The Town in Bloom

  BOOK THREE

  ‘Every Day Speaks a New Scene …’

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  BOOK ONE

  A Trap to Catch a Gazelle

  1

  It was near the top of The Times Personal column:

  Calling Moll Byblow, the Mouse and the Gazelle. Madam Lily de Luxe reminds you of a long-standing luncheon engagement, at one p.m. next Thursday. The window table is reserved. Do not fail. This may be the last reunion.

  I read it on Saturday morning, Lilian having sent me a cutting from Friday’s Times. (She’d repeat the advertisement up to the morning of the lunch party.) I felt sure that Molly, too, would have received one. I rang her up and found she had.

  I said, ‘What did you think of it?’

  ‘Darling Lilian being a wee bit hot-making, perhaps?’

  Lilian would never have permitted herself such a dated expression. Molly would barely know it was dated – and certainly would not mind.

  ‘More than a wee bit, surely.’

  ‘Still, I couldn’t care less. Hardly anyone but ourselves will remember the old names now. And they just might fetch Zelle. None of Lilian’s dignified reminders ever have.’

  ‘Probably Zelle never saw them, though she did sometimes read The Times; also Dracula and the Bible.’

  ‘That’s more than I have. Of course you’re coming on Thursday?’

  ‘I suppose so, or Lilian will never forgive me. But it’s a bit of an effort.’

  ‘Quite time you made one,’ said Molly. ‘We haven’t met for ages. If you drive, be sure to park the car outside the West End. We always do now.’

  ‘Me, too – not that I’ve been up this year. Molly, how long is it since you saw Lilian? Is she all right?’

  ‘Of course she is. I had tea with her the week before last, when I went up to the dentist, and she looked blooming. Why wouldn’t she be all right?’

  ‘I just thought – well, it worried me that she put in “This may be the last reunion.”’

  ‘Oh, that’s just an extra effort to attract Zelle,’ said Molly. ‘Lilian couldn’t be better – anyway, physically; mentally she’s a bit peculiar and one can’t altogether blame her, the life she leads now. And all this nostalgia for the past …’

  I said I sometimes suffered from that myself.

  ‘But you, dear child, have so many pasts and anyway you seldom talk about them. Lilian focuses on that one little period when we knew Zelle, and this last year she’s never stopped talking about it, sort of putting it through a fine sieve.’

  ‘Have you ever discovered why?’

  ‘Well, she did once try to explain but I can’t go into that now. This call’s costing you money.’

  ‘I don’t mind. What did she say?’

  Molly, addressing shouting children and barking dogs, all of whom I could hear, said: ‘Quiet, fiends!’ in a tone which neither expected nor got results. Then she told me she couldn’t remember what Lilian had said – ‘Probably because it didn’t make sense. Anyway, don’t worry. She’ll be all right once the reunion lunch is over.’

  ‘Thank God she only holds them every five years.’

  ‘Oh, I quite enjoy them. Now will you excuse me? There’s a dogfight starting and childfight. They’ll probably end in a foursome. I must dash.’

  Never had I seen Molly so much as hurry, let alone dash.

  I considered telephoning Lilian to let her know she could count on me, then decided a postcard would do. Telephone calls to Lilian were apt to prove ruinous. And I’d some more telephoning to do. If I had to go to London I must make good use of the trip.

  On Thursday I woke to find a perfect September morning, summer with the first gentle hint of autumn, exactly the wrong day to be away from the country. I would have gone for an enormous walk – except that, while in the bath, I saw exactly how to finish the book I was writing, after being stuck for weeks; though as things turned out, I doubt if I should have walked or written, because during breakfast I suddenly knew how to paint the view framed by my open window. I had been threatening to paint for months, sometimes seeing myself as a primitive, sometimes as an abstractionist. Today the primitive mood was in the ascendant. I saw the white fence, with flat flowers against it, and the grey lane on top of the fence, with a flat child cycling along it, and the green field on top of the grey lane, with flat cows against it, and a blue sky on top of the green field, with flat white clouds. I knew not only the whole of the composition but the actual brush strokes I would use. So eager and confident was I that, on my way to London, I stopped at the first little town and laid in a stock of paints – oils; I had once tried water colours and they ran about too much.

  Regret at leaving the country lasted as long as the country lasted. Then, as usual with me, the pull of London began, growing stronger whenever I drove through places where there were fairly large shops. It would be pleasant to do some shopping in the afternoon if Lilian would permit it. Not that I hankered to buy anything in the shops I was passing. I just wanted to paint them, particularly the gaudiest clothes shops; I got the chance to study one while I was held up by traffic lights. But could paint simulate the astonishingly vivid dyes now popular? Perhaps I could achieve a kaleidoscopic effect with dots, dashes, triangles of colour; a little Klee-like? I had stopped being a primitive. Then, in the outer suburbs, I gave up my mental painting, needing to concentrate completely on my driving; it was nearly a year since I had coped with so much traffic.

  As always I had allowed myself two hours to reach St John’s Wood, where I usually left my little car. Today the drive had taken longer. And it was some time before I could find anywhere to park. Then I took a taxi to the hotel.

  Molly and Lilian were there ahead of me, talking to the head porter. I saw them before they saw me and, as so often before, felt a pang because they looked older than my mind’s-eye picture of them. Then they became the no-age, or all-ages, of friends one has known from their youth. Now, as then, Molly looked large, beautiful and placid. Now, as then, Lilian looked slight, beautiful and anything but placid. When alone with Lilian I thought of her as tall; next to Molly she seemed barely of medium height.

  ‘Dear child, you get smaller and smaller,’ said Molly, turning to envelop me in an embrace.

  ‘You’re late,’ said Lilian, before offering her cheek to be kissed. I was one of the few people she kissed in return.

  ‘No luck with Zelle, I suppose?’

  ‘Oh, there’s time yet.’ Lilian’s tone sounded defensive. ‘Actually, I’ve one of my “feelings” that she’ll come today.’

  ‘And we all know dear Lilian’s “feelings”,’ said Molly. ‘Count on them and they let you down. Jeer at them and they come true. Could we eat? I’m ravenous.’

  Lilian had a last word with the head porter. ‘You’ll be on the look-out for our friend? She’s very fair.’

  ‘How do you know she’s still fair?’ I asked as we walked towards the restaurant.

  ‘Oh, that colour of hair looks fair even when it’s turning grey. She’d only need a fair rinse.’

  If there is any grey amidst the night-black of Lilian’s hair only she and her hairdresser know about it. There really is no grey amidst my unspectacular mouse-brown. I often remind myself that does not prove I am young for my age.

  Lilian, her mind like mine still on hair, went on, ‘Isn’t that the perfect hat for Molly? Exactly the right shade.’

  It was a close-fitting cap of russet velvet leaves.

  ‘Well, I like to pretend I’m still a red-head,’ said Molly. ‘But the tide of
white flows in.’

  ‘You’re a fool to let it,’ said Lilian.

  The restaurant always looked to me just as on our first visit; beautiful, formal, dignified yet light-hearted, gleaming with silver, damask and glass, and flooded with light from its tall windows. Beyond them stretched the park, where the grass was still dried by summer, the trees still in full leaf, though the autumn seemed just a little nearer here than it had seemed in the country.

  We were shown to our usual window table. Our reception conveyed that we were honoured guests of many years’ standing and that this was an important occasion. The table was laid for four and our waiter made no attempt to remove the setting we did not need. Five years before he had been prevented from doing so by the head waiter, who had told him another lady was expected. As I sat down I mentally counted up how many times Zelle’s place had remained unoccupied.

  It was no use hoping for a menu. Lilian would have ordered the lunch in advance and it would be an exact replica of our first lunch. Smoked salmon would be followed by chicken and chicken by a pudding of extreme richness which Lilian – though often slimming sternly and unnecessarily – would finish to the last mouthful. It was as well she did not know what vintage of champagne we had originally drunk as she could hardly have gone on repeating it throughout the years. She settled for the same name.

  I began a normal conversation with Molly but was cut short by Lilian.

  ‘You’re not to talk about the present. You’re to think yourselves into the past – so that the past becomes the present. I’m twenty-three, Molly’s twenty-one. And you, Mouse, are eighteen.’

  ‘Must you call me Mouse?’

  ‘I must for today. And I always think of you as Mouse. What have you against it?’

  ‘I never felt it particularly suited me. And as one grows older, comic nicknames seem a bit ridiculous. Anyway, they’re dead out of fashion now.’

  ‘Since when have you cared what was in fashion or out?’

  Come to think of it, what name did I most recognise as mine? Certainly not my real, much too long Christian name; though for years now I had nagged Molly and Lilian to use it, or corruptions of it. And I could remember at least half a dozen nicknames, acquired at different periods of my life. But was there any name more ‘me’ than any other? I found myself accepting ‘Mouse’ – for today, anyway. Lilian’s mood was catching.

  She was determinedly recreating the past. Unable to remember much that had been said at the first lunch, she was inventing what might have been said. This presented difficulties, seeing that she and I had then been keeping our innermost thoughts to ourselves. So had Zelle. Only Molly had been hiding nothing, and she’d been too happy to feel the need to talk of her happiness.

  I have a better memory than Lilian has (though hers is no slouch, nostalgia and memory being blood brothers) so I helped her out. I was beginning to feel very sorry for her; there could be little doubt that Zelle was not going to turn up. Again and again poor Lilian looked at her watch and then, entreatingly, at the door. Already we were finishing the smoked salmon.

  Molly, eating her last slice of brown bread and butter, said, ‘Whatever happened to Veda bread? Do either of you remember it?’

  What joy for Lilian, a new-minted bit of nostalgia! The three of us at once pooled our memories of Veda bread. I said, ‘You two fed it to me the first night I spent at the Club. Wonderful! But even better when we could toast it.’

  ‘How did we toast it?’ said Lilian. ‘There were no gas fires in our cubicles.’

  ‘It was later, after Zelle came. There was a gas fire in her room. Oh, Molly, I have such a vivid mental picture of you kneeling in front of it.’

  ‘So have I, now,’ said Lilian.

  ‘I wonder why they stopped making Veda,’ said Molly, ‘and when they stopped. Funny, I can’t remember when it vanished from my life.’

  Lilian’s dark eyes, so often restless, had a visionary stillness. I guessed she was seeing Zelle’s attic at the Club. After a moment she said, ‘That was our last meeting with Zelle, at one of those Veda toast sessions. Oh, dear!’ She looked at her watch again, then shook her head sadly. After that she obviously accepted the fact that Zelle was not coming and the conversation was allowed to drift from the past into the present.

  For a while we chatted casually. This was pleasant enough but not particularly interesting as none of us had any important news to tell. Half my mind was occupied in wondering why, among the many women I had met, they had remained my closest friends. It was not merely a matter of affection; I had felt affection for many friends, both men and women, and yet let them drift out of my life. Was it Lilian’s tenacity that held us together? It seemed to me that the tenacity was the result, not the cause, of the mysterious fixative in our friendship. And there was no doubt that the little period of summer months which so obsessed her had been of the utmost importance to our lives; to Zelle’s too, surely, yet for her the fixative had not worked.

  I was thinking of this, gazing across the park and giving little attention to Molly and Lilian, who were now exploring one of my least favourite subjects: their recent minor ailments. They then drifted into a discussion of the blatant sexual laxity of present-day youth. I was about to join in by reminding them there had been as much laxity in our own youth, if rather less blatancy – and blatancy could be equated with honesty – when I noticed an odd-looking woman seated on one of the park chairs some thirty yards away. Her crouched figure suggested old age; and her clothes, of extreme shabbiness, were at least two decades out of date. One could see little of her face as a battered hat came down to her ears, a mangy-looking bit of fur rose up to them, and in between fur and hat was a large pair of steel-rimmed spectacles. She was knitting something only recognizable as grey. I found myself reminded of the crones said to have sat knitting round the guillotine during the Reign of Terror.

  She looked up – straight at me, it seemed – then quickly looked back at her knitting. I felt ashamed to be finishing an enormous lunch when there were still women as poor as that around. Should one go out and present her with a few bob? But perhaps she was merely eccentric; would a real down-and-out be knitting? I had another look at her, rather a longer one. It would have been even longer if Lilian had not asked what I was staring at.

  I said – absurdly keeping my voice low, ‘Now listen carefully and, whatever I say, don’t look out of the window. There’s a woman in the park who just might be Zelle. Lilian! I told you not to look!’

  ‘Well, she couldn’t possibly have seen a flicker of a glance like that,’ said Lilian. ‘Anyway, I only saw an old woman.’

  ‘She’s not a normal old woman. She’s an absolute crone – and surely there aren’t any real crones nowadays. I just thought Zelle might have dressed up. You’d better have a real look now but be prepared to look away if she looks up.’

  Lilian did it very cleverly. She got a handkerchief out of her bag and dabbed her nose, while taking a number of swift looks rather than a long one. Then she said: ‘Zelle couldn’t be as awful as that, however hard she tried. And there are still crones. I saw one the other night, after coming out of a theatre. She was huddled in a doorway, asleep. I put some money beside her without waking the poor old girl.’

  I said, ‘Well, this woman can’t be quite broke or she wouldn’t have chosen a chair she’ll have to pay for sitting on. There are plenty of free benches. And why is she sitting facing us? There aren’t any other chairs facing this way.’

  Molly was delving in her outsize handbag. She said she had exactly what was needed – ‘My tiny pair of opera glasses.’

  I stopped her hastily. ‘If you look at her through those you’ll scare her even if she isn’t Zelle. Just take a casual glance.’

  ‘Without some kind of glasses I’d barely see the park, let alone anyone in it,’ said Molly. ‘But I’ll be crafty.’ She took a shopping list from her bag. ‘Now, I’ll pretend I’m reading this but I’ll use my long distance lenses and really look over the
top of it.’

  This complicated operation took some minutes. Then Molly reported she was on my side. ‘That crone’s too croney to be true. And she’s taking a suspicious interest in us. I saw her look up – twice.’

  Lilian said, ‘Wouldn’t it be ghastly if it’s Zelle and she’s not in disguise – if those clothes are the best she’s got? That coat, with those square shoulders, has been a good one. She might have saved it from her better days. Suppose she’s sunk to the depths? She’d never let us know, not after the way things ended.’

  ‘Well, anyway, I don’t see what we can do,’ said Molly. ‘Either it isn’t Zelle, or it is and she doesn’t want to meet us – in which case we can hardly rush out and force ourselves on her.’

  I suggested one of us should walk past the woman quite casually.

  ‘You do it,’ said Lilian. ‘Zelle would be more willing to meet you than us. It was you she left the note for. Oh, God, she’s moving. We’re too late.’

  I sprang up. ‘Perhaps I can overtake her.’

  ‘You’ll have to run,’ said Lilian. ‘She’s walking fast.’

  It is not the kind of hotel one runs in, but I ran – along the corridor, across the hall and out into the street, then back along the front of the hotel until I could turn into the park. The woman was a considerable way ahead of me but I thought I could catch her if I ran full tilt. The distance between us was narrowing when she looked over her shoulder at me and then herself began to run. That settled it for me: she must be Zelle. I tried to increase my speed – how many years was it since I had run like that? Zelle’s legs were longer than mine but she wasn’t running as fast as I was. I should catch her—

  Then she reached an exit from the park. I followed her through it only in time to see her getting on a bus.

  A cruising taxi slowed up beside me. As I opened its door the driver said, ‘Thought you might need me. Saw you sprinting.’